Tuesday, May 26, 2009

psalm 139: 23


I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokenness complete

Friday, February 27, 2009


I promised to never become that mess again. It's a battle when you're everything but strong and courageous. I'm as unfaithful as they come. But I pray that I never do it to You again. You've been too good to me.

It doesn't make sense to love a hypocrite. But hey, I'll take it. Along with everything included in the package. Trials come, hearts break, hope fails, fears come to life, tears fall... and fall some more...and then even more.
Trust HURTS when you're being emptied.

Then You come running to the rescue. All because you're God and that's just how you get down. So come take your place, take your glory, take it all. Even if it leaves me broken..

"My father I adore You more
Than anything my heart could wish for
I just want You
And Jesus my beloved savior
Everything I am I owe to You

And everything I have I give to You
My Lord, the One I live for
And all my days are gifts from You
I pray Id use them as You want me to
Use them for You"

Friday, January 23, 2009


"This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness and trial and pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames"

Friday, January 16, 2009


Normal people unwind before bed. My mind chooses to take off with a flight of ideas. I long for nights when I'm not helpless for hours before my body gives in. Most nights it simply doesn't. I fight to at least keep my thoughts soothing. Some nights they just aren't. I look to Your word to quiet my restless thoughts but tonight, God they are just too loud. I've reacquainted my knees with the ground in hopes to find Your presence here. But I'm greeted by distance and I can't seem to make it leave.

Psalm 139
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

crazy days

"Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed. Simon and his companions went to look for him, and when they found him, they exclaimed: "Everyone is looking for you!"Jesus replied, "Let us go somewhere else— Mark 1:35

I want to be just like You.....